A long time coming...

Wow its been so long... over a year. It seems like just yesterday I posted the last entry in here. Since my last post a lot has happend. I have gotten very involved in our new home, running the Airman's Attic, become a Scentsy Independent Consultant and a number of other things. We moved house after our roof leaked for 4 months, really a lot has happened. I could say that all these things, my busyness, is the reason I stoped blogging, but that would be a lie. August 16, 2011, my Grammy passed away. I woke up went to the Airman's Attic and planned on calling her back that afternoon. (She had tried to call me the day before.) Josh came to the Attic to tell me the horrible news. I knew right away, no question. How I knew I don't know.... she was fine I had just talked to her, seen her, spent the summer hanging out with her, and now she was gone. I felt empty, alone, and like no one would ever completly understand me ever again. You see she was a retired military wife and I was just begining this crazy Air Force Wife life and she was guiding me, telling me how to meet people, how to live this life, and how to be a good wife. Grammy reassured me and encouraged me in this new life. How was I going to go on with her gone? How was I ever going to cook again without her guidance? Well lets just say the first time I cooked was about 3 weeks later and I had my first guests over in nowhere and I balled like a baby while I prepared that meal. I used her recipies and her bowls, but it wasnt the same. I hid this last year in volunteer work at the Attic, and tried hard not to be sad and move on. I did it pretty sucessfully, but thought of Grammy every day in one thing I did or another and sometimes would even pick up the phone to call her only to relize once again the depressing truth that she was gone. Dont think I have been alone in all this I have not, but I have done a pretty good job of covering the grief in my day to day life. Well now it has been one year, one month, and 5 days. In the last month I have DIYed my poor husband to death and cooked I dont know how many new meals and I baked I finally baked again. These are all things that give me Joy, but have not wanted to do since she was gone. Today I decided was the day the day I would begin blogging again. Sorry if my writing is bad Im not proofing it but I heading to work. But I will leave you with this....

“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. i'll always be with you.” - Winnie the Pooh